A letter to my love, my friend, my wife and my partner – Nitu…
I know it's the day
before our 1st Anniversary - some things can't wait just for a day.
12 Months - that's how long
we've been with one another. 12 months feels like a lifetime - so much has
changed - our lives altered in subtle - and not so subtle ways by the gentle
currents of each other. In the time I've known you, we have both changed for
the better - we compliment and act as one another's confidant, friend, partner
and lovers.
We've also been through
our times of trial - little things like misunderstanding at home - and much
bigger things from your health, to finances, to not knowing what we were doing
or where we were going?? We both know that this past year has been
probably the one most challenging one filled with trials and tribulations.
Despite the trials - we
have made each other stronger. You have changed who I am in such fundamental
and subtle ways, that I attribute much of who I am now, to you. You have made me happier, stronger, and more empathetic. You
have also given me the cherished gift of your love, your tears and support in
all these days.
You have given me more
than just your love, you gave me our first son ‘’Ansh’’ - who might as well be a tiny clone of myself, who despite
my willfulness and strong personality makes my heart jump each time I hear his
laugh, each time I hug him.
“Ansh’’ is almost 2 month
old! All parents gush about how smart their children are - but we both know
there's something special and unique about him. I cannot verbalize or put to
words my thanks to you for him. He's a gift you've given to me.
Times change - people
change. We have times when we just don't know what will come, and times when we
wish what had come had not. We have persevered over the hard times we've faced
until now, and those hard times we face now, we face together, as one.. I must admit that I could not be able to
give you enough time in all these days.. but it is only due to my job and work.. Hope you will
understand..
You, and your gift - our son, have given me more than a reason to just keep working, just to keep moving from day to day. You've given me a reason to truly live, to truly push myself beyond anything I could have imagined years ago. You've given me a place and arms to cry in, to laugh in, and to grow in. You've given me a view of life, of living, of loving I never dreamed of having.
I am also sorry that I
cannot always give to you all the things you so richly deserve - I'd give you
anything, I'd buy you anything if I could. I am sorry I don't have
anything I can give you today other than my words..!
So, my gift to you is this - my expression of how much I truly value
you, cherish you and how grateful I am - in spite of all the hard times - the
good times, the memories, our Son and most importantly our love.
Thank you for being who you are.
Thank you for being with me.
Thank you for loving me.
Amaresh
