Being a Moody-Blogger and sometimes Book-Reviewer, I keep getting many inspiration associated with it. Today on the eve of xxxxx week, one of my colleagues, who is kind-of-coordinator asked me to write my personal experience / poetry in supporting xxxxx in our organization. This was about writing an xxxxx story in 250 words. The stories selected will be printed in our in-house periodicals and may be I rewarded with some useless certificates. I refused to write a story for this competition. He kept insisting me to write as he feels that I can do justice to a xxxxx story and he believes that it is easy for me to get selected over others' stories which would be sent from other divisions.
At last when I told my final decision to him that I am not going to write any story on this event, at least for this time, he was upset. He asked me the reason for this stubbornness and I told him "This is not giving me even a bit of excitement or thrill in my heart. I am not feeling any kind of passion to do it. And I don't feel like writing a story of 250 words when I can already convey a message in just few words. So I am not interested in doing this just because someone wants it in 250 words. I can't. Forgive me for now. Maybe, next time, if I'll get that thrill within me, I'll participate". He retaliated, you can get printed. Why not try? Why not show everyone that "This is Amaresh"?? "I replied, "Know I start living for myself. I don't live to prove myself." And after listening this, he was surprised about the fact I was living with. He said that this one sentence of mine will change his attitude towards life. I started smiling. I was happy that he understood why I wasn't interested in this competition. And he didn't force me after that.And seriously, you see your past and analyze that what have you been doing till now. You will find that there has not been even 10% in your life when you would have lived for yourself.
One day, when I was writing my personal diary, I thought about my life. And what I saw was something which shocked me. In all my school days, I studied madly to prove the people in my colony to know that I was better than their child. Then, in the 10th std, I studied with the aim to show others what my percentage is. In 11th std, I filled the form for Science even when the world was asking me to join Commerce as they knew I can't manage Science. I selected Science just to show everyone that I am capable of doing what you think I'm incapable of. I struggled badly to cope up with the portion of 11th and 12th both. I know what those 3 months were like when I was mugging up all those Physic's equations, Chemistry's reaction and Math's theorem. I was just experiencing hell & finally took the decision to go a head with Commerce. After seeing all this, I realized that I never did what I wanted to. I always did what was needed to prove others about me. Then, my graduation started. I came in with a new thought of doing what I like rather than doing something to prove my classmates that I am capable of doing what they aren't. But then I got a person whom I challenged indirectly that I'll do better than you. She had put her efforts in studies while I kept slogging to score more than her. At last, the first semester's result was out and I was 5% ahead of her.
I was again writing my diary and I realized that I broke the promise I gave to myself. I, once again did something to prove others that I am better than someone rather than doing something to make myself happy. And it was the last time when I got involved in any kind of race in regards of marks or performance. I always did everything to keep myself happy. I never tried to prove anyone. I participated in the College's Competitions in the last 2 years and won some and lost many. But I did it because I wanted to. I played Sports in the 2nd year while I excused myself from it in the 1st year. Because, in 1st year, I didn't wanted to play it, in the 2nd year I wanted to play for myself. Even at work, I have never tried to prove myself. Though I am working with the most respected group of this country, where they say that I am having enormous opportunity to prove myself, I never tried to please my bosses. I always kept myself away from any kind of race in corporate.....
So, I just want to say -Start living for your moments, your happiness, and your excitement rather than proving others that your life has more moments, more happiness and more excitement than theirs? Only you can review the best about yourself. No one else can know you better than you know yourself. So, why do many of us try to prove others that I am the better one or I am the best? Be yourself and do anything only when your heart persuades you to do it. Else, if you think that you have to prove others, don't do it. Because others can never feel good about what you do or what you are going to do. They'll keep judging you and they'll keep behaving judgmental by analyzing what you are by seeing what you were in your past.
So, for me, I work for myself. Not to prove others that I am good in it. I write for myself. I live for myself. I don't live to prove anyone that my life has more prosperity than them.
At last when I told my final decision to him that I am not going to write any story on this event, at least for this time, he was upset. He asked me the reason for this stubbornness and I told him "This is not giving me even a bit of excitement or thrill in my heart. I am not feeling any kind of passion to do it. And I don't feel like writing a story of 250 words when I can already convey a message in just few words. So I am not interested in doing this just because someone wants it in 250 words. I can't. Forgive me for now. Maybe, next time, if I'll get that thrill within me, I'll participate". He retaliated, you can get printed. Why not try? Why not show everyone that "This is Amaresh"?? "I replied, "Know I start living for myself. I don't live to prove myself." And after listening this, he was surprised about the fact I was living with. He said that this one sentence of mine will change his attitude towards life. I started smiling. I was happy that he understood why I wasn't interested in this competition. And he didn't force me after that.And seriously, you see your past and analyze that what have you been doing till now. You will find that there has not been even 10% in your life when you would have lived for yourself.
One day, when I was writing my personal diary, I thought about my life. And what I saw was something which shocked me. In all my school days, I studied madly to prove the people in my colony to know that I was better than their child. Then, in the 10th std, I studied with the aim to show others what my percentage is. In 11th std, I filled the form for Science even when the world was asking me to join Commerce as they knew I can't manage Science. I selected Science just to show everyone that I am capable of doing what you think I'm incapable of. I struggled badly to cope up with the portion of 11th and 12th both. I know what those 3 months were like when I was mugging up all those Physic's equations, Chemistry's reaction and Math's theorem. I was just experiencing hell & finally took the decision to go a head with Commerce. After seeing all this, I realized that I never did what I wanted to. I always did what was needed to prove others about me. Then, my graduation started. I came in with a new thought of doing what I like rather than doing something to prove my classmates that I am capable of doing what they aren't. But then I got a person whom I challenged indirectly that I'll do better than you. She had put her efforts in studies while I kept slogging to score more than her. At last, the first semester's result was out and I was 5% ahead of her.
I was again writing my diary and I realized that I broke the promise I gave to myself. I, once again did something to prove others that I am better than someone rather than doing something to make myself happy. And it was the last time when I got involved in any kind of race in regards of marks or performance. I always did everything to keep myself happy. I never tried to prove anyone. I participated in the College's Competitions in the last 2 years and won some and lost many. But I did it because I wanted to. I played Sports in the 2nd year while I excused myself from it in the 1st year. Because, in 1st year, I didn't wanted to play it, in the 2nd year I wanted to play for myself. Even at work, I have never tried to prove myself. Though I am working with the most respected group of this country, where they say that I am having enormous opportunity to prove myself, I never tried to please my bosses. I always kept myself away from any kind of race in corporate.....
So, I just want to say -Start living for your moments, your happiness, and your excitement rather than proving others that your life has more moments, more happiness and more excitement than theirs? Only you can review the best about yourself. No one else can know you better than you know yourself. So, why do many of us try to prove others that I am the better one or I am the best? Be yourself and do anything only when your heart persuades you to do it. Else, if you think that you have to prove others, don't do it. Because others can never feel good about what you do or what you are going to do. They'll keep judging you and they'll keep behaving judgmental by analyzing what you are by seeing what you were in your past.
So, for me, I work for myself. Not to prove others that I am good in it. I write for myself. I live for myself. I don't live to prove anyone that my life has more prosperity than them.
Regards,AG..
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